For the large majority of my life, I didn’t believe God loved me. My pastor said God loved everyone. My mom said He loved me almost as much as she did. 😉 But because of people, who unknowingly fought against that truth by the way they treated me, I just couldn’t believe Jesus would love a girl like me.
I wanted to believe it so bad. I really did. But No amount of effort to force myself to believe it worked. No matter how many times I heard it through Bible studies, it just wouldn’t stick.
There’s a lot of reasons a person can doubt Gods love. Often times it’s because people treat them in ways that don’t show how valuable they are.
Other time it’s a misunderstanding of scripture.
But for me, and I think for many people in American culture, it was rooted in a desire to feel it.
Don’t get me wrong. There are days when I feel Gods love. But it’s not like what you might think. It’s not butterflies in my stomach or tingles in my body.
It’s when a friend randomly sends me an encouragement card in the mail on the exact day I needed it. I see Gods love through them & in that moment I feel loved. I feel His love.
Though, the revelation that changed everything for me was I don’t have to feel Gods love to believe it. About two years ago, God showed me the core of what love is not a feeling.
Love is commitment.
Love is saying you love someone and putting your money where your mouth is.
Love is paying the ultimate price for people even if they don’t love you in return.
Because Jesus is loyal, is faithful and is true to His word, He went to the cross to redeem The World. Just like it was prophesied moments after the first man & woman sinned in Eden.
So, from day one…. really from before the foundation of the world if you want to get real technical about it…. we see Jesus make promises & keep them no matter the cost. That is love. ♥️
So we can know He loves us whether we feel it or not because He has already shown us He loves us.
For years, I was bitter over the fact that it seemed like other Christians had all this peace and joy and were just so blessed by knowing God loved them.
Instead of letting their experience lead me to truth, it often led me to jealousy. I was mad God wouldn’t “fix me” and make me like them. I was mad I had to be one of those miserable Christians who couldn’t seem to “figure it out.”
So friend, if you find yourself in the same spot as I used to be, let me say this. God doesn’t need to fix you. There is nothing wrong with you if you struggle to believe God loves you.
Though, you do need to work on trusting Him. He’s done everything to prove His love to us. While it may be hard to believe He could love you because of the things you’ve done or who you believe yourself to be, trust Him at His Word:
Romans 5:6-10 — You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through Him! For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.
Beloved Rejoice 🕊❤️